This past weekend I drove to Charlottesville with my daughters. We had some lovely experiences and, as usual, the scenery was beautiful. But I also found myself making a pretty negative assessment of the 20+ years since I first arrived on the grounds of the University of Virginia. Opportunities that I didn’t take advantage of. Connections that I didn’t make.
While it may be true that I could have done many things differently over the past 20 years, that is not the complete story. In the midst of that pitiful remembering, I was forgetting what a rich time of spiritual growth college had been for me. And there is one very important connection that I did make at UVA—I met my future husband! With whom I would eventually have 4 beautiful children! I would not trade any of that for any experience in the world. And for every blessing God has allowed me to see, who knows how many troubles from which He spared me?!
But sometimes my replay button skips important scenes. So that, for example, I remember only the good that I (think I) did when defending myself against (real or imagined) accusations. Or I focus only on mistakes and mishaps while ignoring the good that has happened. It’s as if my thoughts have a mind of their own. 🙂 If left to wander unrestrained, unguided by truth, they can lead to all kinds of dark places. And before I know it, I’ve been driving for 2 hours, meditating on nonsense all along Route 29. Such thoughts—whether they exalt self, or trivialize Christ’s work in and for me—have no place in the mind of His follower.
How good is your replay? Do you tend to leave out important scenes?